The Life of Ednique....I had just recently realised that ppl are actually interested to know about my life..well of course i'm glad to know that i do have some 'fans' of this blog who check it out quite frequently and i thank you for visiting..you know who u are, close friends, colleagues, family members....
However, little did i know that i would be a 'popular' target among some ppl who are close to the people from my past..well im not meaning to say that i do not welcome their presence, of course i do, coz they are innocent, i mean, at least they were not involved in the problems i had with the 'past' ppl...i've had the wife, girlfriend, sister, of ex-es contacting me, for the reason of just wanting to be my friend.....well to this group of ppl, i have no problems keeping in contact with them, so long as their intention is good and not bearing any grudges against me for whatever reason it is....however, sad to say..there are some black sheep among them..though they dont keep in contact with me, they are against me just because i am the 'ex' of the person they are close to...and worse still, instead of telling me directly, they made use of some 'messengers' to convey their resentment towards me...which i find it very cowardly and childish..
well honestly speaking, i didnt ask for all this attention..what's past is past, there's no need to bear grudges...so sorry to say, but i find that these ppl are just purely biased..they use their ears (noticed that i didnt mention 'heart') more than their brains...well its now 2007, I have moved on, and i seriously have no tolerance and wouldnt want to waste my time entertaining these type of ppl who want to dislike here and there when they have no idea what went wrong in between....
To those of you who happened to read this post, I hope you wont ever be like the ppl whom i've just mentioned...i too will make sure that i will never be like that....always remember, 1 finger that you point to others, 4 will be pointing back right at you...
Monday, October 29, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
You're the ANGEL in my heart, MUM
It's not uncommon in this modern and fast paced society that we often fail to appreciate the ppl that are dear to us..the person who nags at us everyday when we dont get up from the bed even though after they had screamed the umpteenth time, when we dont clear our dirty laundry from the room, when we consistently mess up the house etc..is also the person who takes care of our meals, washes our laundry, stays up late just to wait for us to reach home safely, stays by our side when we need a shoulder to cry on....the person whom im referring to is none other than, our dear Mother.....(Dad pls dont take offence, i will write abt you too soon ok??)
i've had my fair share of stories of ppl who has a mother, but being left by her when they are still young, ppl who want to have a mother, but being cared by ill step-mother instead and also ppl who has a great, loving mother, but took her for granted instead...i know, i too have my fair share of those times when i had somehow in one way or another, made my mother sad or offended...i did have a glitch with her, few years back, we had different opinions on a particular matter...i knew it made her sad, but i didnt want to give in either....in the end, when the truth came to light, i realised, that mum only had my best interest at heart...and i admit, i felt really bad, so bad that i even hate myself for making her feel sad on those times...i vowed, that i will not repeat my mistakes to her, and am always concious of what i say or do, coz i dont want to offend her anymore...
Mother, in my own words, is someone, who had made great sacrifices for others and who has the heaviest responsibilities than any president of any country...never forget, she's the one who gave birth to us, takes care of us, since we were born, till we grow up. Even when we have our own families, she never fails to care for us. Not only is she a mum, she's also a wife to her husband and daughter to her parents...its no easy task being a mother, she has enough problems to worry about, enough tasks for her to carry out...and as such, she should be given the utmost respect by her children...and please, lets not add another burden on her, by being one of the problems she's facing...one of the things that would make a mother truly HAPPY, is to see her children happy being with her, show her our love, care and concern..
For those of us, who had never really showed them our love, please, do something about it...if you have never hug or kiss her and say thanks for the things she does for you, do it, before its too late....u never know, when will be the last time you will see her...don't try to wait for the next Mother's Day, coz u never know, TODAY might just be the last time you see her....
Mum, I LOVE YOU....You will always be the ANGEL in my heart that no one can replace.....
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
My Memorable Birthday 18.09.2007
hi y'all thanks for still checking up my blog though i havent had the time to really blog these days..so today i've got something to share..its my 27th Birthday Celebration, a Memorable one...
The bday Ice Cream Cake by Mr Im...Its called 'Hazelnut Indulgence' hmmmm..my fav..
Mr Im, diligently, trying to put all 27 candles on the cake, that only the candles can be seen rather than the cake itself hahaha...
Thank you to all, for making my Birthday this year a truly memorable and happy one for me...Words can't express how thankful and grateful I am to be loved by all of you...I LOVE YOU ALL.......
firstly, thanks to all of u who had sent me ur wishes, either personally or virtually..thanks alot i appreciate it very much, thanks for remembering, to my dear colleagues, AP,CP & AB thanks for the present, i love it..got place to hang my necklaces already ;), last but not least thanks to my family and Mr Im for making this year a memorable birthday for me...
Hmm, got me thinking...my birthdays in previous years are always an enjoyable occasion as i will celebrate it with my bro, whose bday is the day after mine..however, this year its abit different and one that i will never forget, i'll tell you why......
Firstly, my bday this year falls in the holy month of Ramadhan, my family had celebrated it with me at my place, we break fast together after which, we did our terawih prayers together (its the prayers that are conducted every night only during the fasting month), i had my first birthday wish call right at midnight by Mr Im, along with smses by my good friends Ida and Fizah (thanks loads), mum wished me Happy Birthday during sahur (the time when we wake in the early morning to have our meal), received birthday wishes via sms by Mr Im's mum, had my first dinner with Mr Im at Swensen's Vivo, had my first ice cream Bday Cake! (yum!), received my first bday wish video clip by Mr Im and his 2 nephews and had my first video clip blowing the candles...i'm gona share with yall my bday celebration, at Vivocity ;)
The bday Ice Cream Cake by Mr Im...Its called 'Hazelnut Indulgence' hmmmm..my fav..
Mr Im, diligently, trying to put all 27 candles on the cake, that only the candles can be seen rather than the cake itself hahaha...
The end product, finally, all 27 candles are on the cake....
Trying to pose with the 'burning' cake as much as possible while the candles are still alight..hmm can we blow the candles and eat the cake like, now??
Finally, my wish had come true......;) it was delicious, tak bedek...
Thank you to all, for making my Birthday this year a truly memorable and happy one for me...Words can't express how thankful and grateful I am to be loved by all of you...I LOVE YOU ALL.......
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Valuable Lessons...
you're a very good listener, good commenter, someone who is aware of the latest happening news; local and international, always brighten my days (most times), you're funny, friendly but can be rude at times, talkative (but can be real quiet some times), someone whom i can talk to about anything; be it working life, personal life, or even about life in general..grateful to be able to talk to you, coz it had somehow made an impact in my life over the course of time....You're my.......Mr CABBIE...
;) hehhe did i made u guys wonder who im talking about actually? well, did we ever wonder, who are the people who has the most interaction with ppl every single day? and im not talking about only business transactions alone...what i meant was business transaction with a personal touch...they are none other than cab drivers..u see, ppl who are in the service industries, who deal with customers each day, yes there are loads of customers that they meet and interact. but how much do we, as consumers talk to them in the few minutes of the transaction? do we talk to them about our personal lives? do we discuss the most juiciest issues in the news? we dont. well for some, yes, like maybe regular customers, insurance agents etc...but how about first encounter?
ok some of u might be thinking that i've run out of ideas for my blog and came up with this lame topic..hehe well, i'm gona put it up anyways....hmm i do admit that i'm an avid fan of TAXIs and being a regular passenger of taxi drivers, i've got the priviledge to learn alot of things and be aware of whats happening around me that i didnt know previously, (thats a comfort, though its burning holes in my pocket :P) so that inspired me to share my experiences during my short encounters with taxi drivers, which had some kind of impact in my life...
i suppose many of us take taxi quite regularly, but how many of us really remember what we chat with the 'taxi uncle/auntie' the moment we hop of the cab? as for me, i personally love to talk to taxi drivers...it can be a short trip of 5 minutes, but we could actually make a story out of it ;) i actually ever thought of compiling my encounters into a book (hahaha wishful thinking) but seriously, its really interesting to talk to them..some can be real talkative and got carried away that i had to cut them and say, "Uncle, pls stop after that hump" hhahaha....i had cabbie drivers talking about how many hotels keep changing their names that they also dunno which is which, about the latest news, which shares are going up and down, their eerie experiences in the middle of the night, their families and stories of their younger days, how they ended up being taxi drivers etc2...but the worst and the most disgusting stories i heard are about our UGLY Singaporean passengers..its really sad to know, that our own local ppl are truly deprived of moral values and basic courtesy..i usually like to ask taxi drivers about the ppl that take their cab, and many times, most of them say the same thing....about the younger, more educated generation, being very STUCK UP and RUDE. they treat the Mr Cabbies like their own personal drivers, scolded them when they refuse to speed just because they were already running late, or worse, left the driver waiting for them while they 'go and take something for a while' and never came back to pay the cab fare...and they were supposed to be the younger, well-dressed, highly educated group of ppl...i really feel ashamed and pity these drivers who are earning their daily salary driving these jerks around...
well i dont deny that there are super rude taxi drivers around too, i try not to be rude to them but if they had gone overboard, i would give them a piece of my mind :P. there was once i wanted to get off in a traffic jam at the side of the road, and this driver scolded me saying "Cannot! Cannot! later behind got motorcycle and hit my door how? who want to pay?!" i was like, gosh this uncle is sooooo gonna get it from me..i said there are no motorcycles behind and i even turned around to take a look and for God's sake its in a traffic jam! but i didnt want to argue anyway so i just sat in there stupidly waiting for the cars to move and for him to turn into the drop off lobby of my destination...when he was about to turn, his tyres hit the curb at the bend and the taxi jerked and that was when i said, "drive also cannot drive properly" kwang kwang kwang....
but the ultimate ride was this one morning, i was on the way to work and this driver was driving as though the road was zig zagged and he was driving super slowly that i was afraid to even blink my eyes...we were on the expressway when he was suddenly driving towards the side of the bend and that was when i shouted, "Uncle! what are you doing???!!!" guess what, he was actually dozzing off! oh my god, i said a little prayer thanking God that im still alive when i could have gotten into an accident..phew!
well that actually was an effective wake up call for me though, thanks uncle cabbie, you could have gotten me killed??! ahahaha ok so, thats some of the stories i wanted to share with y'all..bottom line, i just wanted to say that, taxi drivers, as much as they get on our nerves at times, they can be real nice ppl i must say..some gave good advices, they are intelligent too, some had unpleasant experiences like failed marriages, businesses that lead them to become a taxi driver, some can be abit cheeky lah hehe there even was this uncle who said if he were younger, he would go after me ;) whatever it is, i hope to convey the message that we should be appreciative towards them, driving us safely (most times) to our destination and treat them with respect as well, after all, they are earning money just like all of us....
I've learnt valuable lessons from ppl that we never thought we could learn from, and its something that i will always remember and appreciate whenever i flag a CAB.....
;) hehhe did i made u guys wonder who im talking about actually? well, did we ever wonder, who are the people who has the most interaction with ppl every single day? and im not talking about only business transactions alone...what i meant was business transaction with a personal touch...they are none other than cab drivers..u see, ppl who are in the service industries, who deal with customers each day, yes there are loads of customers that they meet and interact. but how much do we, as consumers talk to them in the few minutes of the transaction? do we talk to them about our personal lives? do we discuss the most juiciest issues in the news? we dont. well for some, yes, like maybe regular customers, insurance agents etc...but how about first encounter?
ok some of u might be thinking that i've run out of ideas for my blog and came up with this lame topic..hehe well, i'm gona put it up anyways....hmm i do admit that i'm an avid fan of TAXIs and being a regular passenger of taxi drivers, i've got the priviledge to learn alot of things and be aware of whats happening around me that i didnt know previously, (thats a comfort, though its burning holes in my pocket :P) so that inspired me to share my experiences during my short encounters with taxi drivers, which had some kind of impact in my life...
i suppose many of us take taxi quite regularly, but how many of us really remember what we chat with the 'taxi uncle/auntie' the moment we hop of the cab? as for me, i personally love to talk to taxi drivers...it can be a short trip of 5 minutes, but we could actually make a story out of it ;) i actually ever thought of compiling my encounters into a book (hahaha wishful thinking) but seriously, its really interesting to talk to them..some can be real talkative and got carried away that i had to cut them and say, "Uncle, pls stop after that hump" hhahaha....i had cabbie drivers talking about how many hotels keep changing their names that they also dunno which is which, about the latest news, which shares are going up and down, their eerie experiences in the middle of the night, their families and stories of their younger days, how they ended up being taxi drivers etc2...but the worst and the most disgusting stories i heard are about our UGLY Singaporean passengers..its really sad to know, that our own local ppl are truly deprived of moral values and basic courtesy..i usually like to ask taxi drivers about the ppl that take their cab, and many times, most of them say the same thing....about the younger, more educated generation, being very STUCK UP and RUDE. they treat the Mr Cabbies like their own personal drivers, scolded them when they refuse to speed just because they were already running late, or worse, left the driver waiting for them while they 'go and take something for a while' and never came back to pay the cab fare...and they were supposed to be the younger, well-dressed, highly educated group of ppl...i really feel ashamed and pity these drivers who are earning their daily salary driving these jerks around...
well i dont deny that there are super rude taxi drivers around too, i try not to be rude to them but if they had gone overboard, i would give them a piece of my mind :P. there was once i wanted to get off in a traffic jam at the side of the road, and this driver scolded me saying "Cannot! Cannot! later behind got motorcycle and hit my door how? who want to pay?!" i was like, gosh this uncle is sooooo gonna get it from me..i said there are no motorcycles behind and i even turned around to take a look and for God's sake its in a traffic jam! but i didnt want to argue anyway so i just sat in there stupidly waiting for the cars to move and for him to turn into the drop off lobby of my destination...when he was about to turn, his tyres hit the curb at the bend and the taxi jerked and that was when i said, "drive also cannot drive properly" kwang kwang kwang....
but the ultimate ride was this one morning, i was on the way to work and this driver was driving as though the road was zig zagged and he was driving super slowly that i was afraid to even blink my eyes...we were on the expressway when he was suddenly driving towards the side of the bend and that was when i shouted, "Uncle! what are you doing???!!!" guess what, he was actually dozzing off! oh my god, i said a little prayer thanking God that im still alive when i could have gotten into an accident..phew!
well that actually was an effective wake up call for me though, thanks uncle cabbie, you could have gotten me killed??! ahahaha ok so, thats some of the stories i wanted to share with y'all..bottom line, i just wanted to say that, taxi drivers, as much as they get on our nerves at times, they can be real nice ppl i must say..some gave good advices, they are intelligent too, some had unpleasant experiences like failed marriages, businesses that lead them to become a taxi driver, some can be abit cheeky lah hehe there even was this uncle who said if he were younger, he would go after me ;) whatever it is, i hope to convey the message that we should be appreciative towards them, driving us safely (most times) to our destination and treat them with respect as well, after all, they are earning money just like all of us....
I've learnt valuable lessons from ppl that we never thought we could learn from, and its something that i will always remember and appreciate whenever i flag a CAB.....
Saturday, August 18, 2007
This is for you, FIZ
hmmm...abit strange i felt..how come no one commented on my last post ah...?? u all agree with what i said isitttt? Thank you, thank you! hahaha well i suppose those around me would know what happened and thanks y'all for being there for me and backing me up, appreciate that lots.. MR Faker did call up few days ago coz something came up and he sounded 'well-behaved' coz i suppose he knew he was at fault...as for me, i just sounded normal, or should i say, expressionless, thats how i would be if already 'bo chup' with a person...hhee well ok i apologise if i was sounding too emotional in the last post but im sorry i couldnt help it..i suppose writing it all in the blog gives me a sense of relieve and satisfaction..and btw, MR Faker is not any of my personal friend, if u guys were wondering who this lamer is..anyway, thats it about him..
its been some time that i put up a post...so i thought today i should put up one, dedicated to a good friend and sis, Fiz..
To Fiz, i know you've been reading my blog frequently, i've been checking up urs too, and i appreciate the fact that u remember me and include me in ur posts, thats really nice of u..well yes, we havent been really close like we used to be, but in one way or another, we still do keep in touch..I feel for you, with whatever problems you're facing right now, wish i could help but i suppose, its not really possible coz its too personal.. and im in no position to do so either. but im glad u managed to tide over the rough waves...well i just want to let u know that no matter what, u can always look me up if u need someone to talk to ok?? and if u dont already know me well, i'm non-judgemental, so in ur blog, u dont know what i would be thinking of u after u 'confessed' on that issue, well my answer is, my impression of u never changed at all..i hope u will be strong enough to stand firm amidst all the distractions..
So take care, sis, live life to the fullest dont ever waste it and thank Allah for all his graciousness..
To the rest, thanks for checking up my blog, till next post...
its been some time that i put up a post...so i thought today i should put up one, dedicated to a good friend and sis, Fiz..
To Fiz, i know you've been reading my blog frequently, i've been checking up urs too, and i appreciate the fact that u remember me and include me in ur posts, thats really nice of u..well yes, we havent been really close like we used to be, but in one way or another, we still do keep in touch..I feel for you, with whatever problems you're facing right now, wish i could help but i suppose, its not really possible coz its too personal.. and im in no position to do so either. but im glad u managed to tide over the rough waves...well i just want to let u know that no matter what, u can always look me up if u need someone to talk to ok?? and if u dont already know me well, i'm non-judgemental, so in ur blog, u dont know what i would be thinking of u after u 'confessed' on that issue, well my answer is, my impression of u never changed at all..i hope u will be strong enough to stand firm amidst all the distractions..
So take care, sis, live life to the fullest dont ever waste it and thank Allah for all his graciousness..
To the rest, thanks for checking up my blog, till next post...
Saturday, August 11, 2007
FAKES
Before i begin my post this time, allow me to say that whatever im posting is subjected to my own personal view...no one has to agree with whatever i am about to say..feel free to bombard me with your comments be it negative or positive..
Its interesting to find different kinds of ppl living in this world...i wouldnt say good or bad ppl because everyone has their own perception...rather i would describe these ppl to be, kind-hearted, considerate, selfish, stuck up, generous, back-stabbers,down-to-earth etc2 and the list goes on and on...we can describe ppl in 1001 adjectives...however, the worst kinds of ppl that i personally HATE BIG TIME are LIARS and HYPOCRITES...
HYPOCRITE, according to the Cambridge Dictionary, it describes someone who pretends to believe something that they do not really believe or that is the opposite of what they do or say at another time...well its not really hard to find these type of ppl living in this world..we cant stop ppl from being who they are but i just wonder if these hypocrites realise that they are being one hell of a pain in the neck, especially if its really too obvious not to realise it themselves..in my personal opinion, being a hypocrite is already bad enough, but it's much worse if they they hurt others too...which leaves me with no choice but to label these ppl as brainless...i wonder where their brain is..can someone tell me where their brain is? Well, i suddenly thought of someone, a 7 yr old kid who says, "this person has no brain, he forgot to bring his brain, he left it in his home, and he's going home to get it now, he realised that he left his brain in the closet...hahah...well at the time he said it, i just felt it was so amusing but now, i really feel it fits this context perfectly...
Its such a shame that ppl, who preach so much about professionalism, when, the truth is, they dont practice what they preach...its just so sad, that these ppl have no idea what the hell they are preaching at all...its better off if they dont preach at all and no one will give a damn even if they are not being professional...but the moment u start telling the world, "I'm being professional u know..we must be professional at all times...and bla bla bla, but youre not even showing acts of professionalism, it becomes a joke on yourself...it leads to others perceiving you as a HYPOCRITE. And i have a 4 letter F word for these ppl, F.A.K.E..... To the person whom i've labelled as Mr FAKER, i pray that he gets this straight one fine day, someone who is professional, never tells others that they are being professional...i hate to label ppl and i hate to hate ppl, but some ppl are just too much that i have to say this....
I've had my fair share of meeting FAKES in my life who had betrayed and hurt me...and i'm sick and tired of dealing with ppl who 'cakap tak serupa bikin' its a malay idiom meaning, ppl who dont practice what they preach, and 'ular kepala dua', meaning ppl who talks nicely in front of some, but show their true colours in front of others...well, what can i do, ppl will be ppl, we cant change who they are, i suppose we are left with our own self on how to deal with these jokers..as for me, i will just choose to be cordial, i wont be rude, but i wont be nice either... from now on its just plain business relations and nothing more, no more favours, no more putting up with the stupid jokes...i wont take revenge, i wont bear grudges, let God decide what's best for them...
Congratulations Mr FAKER, you've just won yourself a free ticket to I-Wont-Give-A-Quack-About-What-You-Say-Anymore Land, enjoy your stay...just remember that the cycle of life is simple, what goes around, comes around...one day you hurt someone, one day it will just slap you hard in the face....
Its interesting to find different kinds of ppl living in this world...i wouldnt say good or bad ppl because everyone has their own perception...rather i would describe these ppl to be, kind-hearted, considerate, selfish, stuck up, generous, back-stabbers,down-to-earth etc2 and the list goes on and on...we can describe ppl in 1001 adjectives...however, the worst kinds of ppl that i personally HATE BIG TIME are LIARS and HYPOCRITES...
HYPOCRITE, according to the Cambridge Dictionary, it describes someone who pretends to believe something that they do not really believe or that is the opposite of what they do or say at another time...well its not really hard to find these type of ppl living in this world..we cant stop ppl from being who they are but i just wonder if these hypocrites realise that they are being one hell of a pain in the neck, especially if its really too obvious not to realise it themselves..in my personal opinion, being a hypocrite is already bad enough, but it's much worse if they they hurt others too...which leaves me with no choice but to label these ppl as brainless...i wonder where their brain is..can someone tell me where their brain is? Well, i suddenly thought of someone, a 7 yr old kid who says, "this person has no brain, he forgot to bring his brain, he left it in his home, and he's going home to get it now, he realised that he left his brain in the closet...hahah...well at the time he said it, i just felt it was so amusing but now, i really feel it fits this context perfectly...
Its such a shame that ppl, who preach so much about professionalism, when, the truth is, they dont practice what they preach...its just so sad, that these ppl have no idea what the hell they are preaching at all...its better off if they dont preach at all and no one will give a damn even if they are not being professional...but the moment u start telling the world, "I'm being professional u know..we must be professional at all times...and bla bla bla, but youre not even showing acts of professionalism, it becomes a joke on yourself...it leads to others perceiving you as a HYPOCRITE. And i have a 4 letter F word for these ppl, F.A.K.E..... To the person whom i've labelled as Mr FAKER, i pray that he gets this straight one fine day, someone who is professional, never tells others that they are being professional...i hate to label ppl and i hate to hate ppl, but some ppl are just too much that i have to say this....
I've had my fair share of meeting FAKES in my life who had betrayed and hurt me...and i'm sick and tired of dealing with ppl who 'cakap tak serupa bikin' its a malay idiom meaning, ppl who dont practice what they preach, and 'ular kepala dua', meaning ppl who talks nicely in front of some, but show their true colours in front of others...well, what can i do, ppl will be ppl, we cant change who they are, i suppose we are left with our own self on how to deal with these jokers..as for me, i will just choose to be cordial, i wont be rude, but i wont be nice either... from now on its just plain business relations and nothing more, no more favours, no more putting up with the stupid jokes...i wont take revenge, i wont bear grudges, let God decide what's best for them...
Congratulations Mr FAKER, you've just won yourself a free ticket to I-Wont-Give-A-Quack-About-What-You-Say-Anymore Land, enjoy your stay...just remember that the cycle of life is simple, what goes around, comes around...one day you hurt someone, one day it will just slap you hard in the face....
Sunday, August 5, 2007
In the name of BEAUTY
hey y'all, was browsing through a friend's blog just now (thanks fiz, if you're reading this, kudos to u for putting it up), and after reading her latest post, it knocked me so hard that i decided to comment on the topic too and share it with u all...before i begin, read this simple yet meaningful story that reveals the shocking truth of today's world....this story has no connection whatsoever with the living or the dead....
Girl: Hey
Boy: What?
Girl: I really like you. And I... I think I'm falling in love with you.
Boy: Ok...Girl: What do you mean "ok"?Boy: I don't like you like that...
Girl: Why not?
Boy: I can't tell you... maybe another time...
From then on, the girl kept asking the boy "Why not?" whenever she saw him, and he kept answering the same answer of "I'll tell you later." Finally the girl got fed up.
Girl: I'm tired of this! Tell me why you don't like me!
Boy: Do you really wanna know why?
Girl: Yes!
Boy: It's because you're uglier than freak! What's the point of going out with someone when they're not pretty?! (The nerve!! soo superficial!!)
Girl: But... I...
Boy: Just shut up and leave me alone!
The boy leaves and the girl is sitting there alone, crying her heart out. Then her cell phone rings.
Girl: Hello?
Mom: Sweetheart? I want you to go home, ok? I'll be home from work in a few hours.
Girl: Alright Mom.
Mom: I love you.
Girl: I love you too, Mom.
Mom: Bye Bye.
Girl: Bye
The girl heads home and once she got there, she went in the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror.
Girl: I'm not pretty enough...
She set to work, knowing fully well what she was going to do. 2 hours later, her Mom came home and heard the bathwater running. She went upstairs to find the hallway flooded so she knocked on the door.
Mom: Honey? Are you alright?
She opened the door and was shocked at the site. The bath was overflowing onto the floor, and the water was tinted red. She walked over to see what was inside and screamed. There, her little girl was lying with cuts all over her face and wrists. Her Mom backed away and was going to run to call the police when something caught her eye. On the mirror were these words written in blood: "Am I pretty enough now?"
No one deserves to be told that by ANYONE especially not from someone they love. A person's appearance doesn't count. What counts is their heart inside of them and their personality. No one likes to be told they're not good enough...
It's SAD but its also TRUE, that the scenario mentioned above is taking place in our daily life..i'm not talking only about boy-girl relationships, hell that's worse, to hear those freaking words from someone u love, its like a knife piercing through ur skin..rather im talking in general, about how the ppl living in the world today looks more on the outward beauty rather than beauty that's inside our hearts...true enough ppl always say, they only care about inward beauty and not the physical beauty, but how many of us really, truly mean it?
well, i've had my fair share of comments about my outlook, both positive and negative. But the worst, and the most hurtful came from someone i used to adore years ago...i know and could feel the pain the girl in the story above had felt...i had been told by this person many times, though its done subtly...things like, "i think you should start to exercise" (that's reasonable enough, no problems with that), "you're getting sick more often because you're not healthy, should start to exercise" (ok thats still not too bad), what about...."you see, how many times the back tyres of my bike had flattened, and why not the front one? its because of your weight,you really should start to exercise" (wah lau, that's abit harsh isnt it?) well maybe to some its just a passing comment, but to me, its no longer a passing comment when its been uttered many times...well its not something that i DON'T ALREADY KNOW and i wasnt like lazing around and do nothing, but then, with whatever's been said, its like being slapped in the face and really hurts especially when it comes from the person u love...but i thank Allah that i didnt go as far as doing what the girl did in her story....
well it's no wonder that ppl nowadays, especially girls would do WHATEVER and ANYTHING to stay slim or should i say thin....the society has been so-called 'programmed' to like only the beautiful and slim exterior...it doesnt really matter if you have a good heart or personality, or whether u have talents...
well i suppose, in this matter, we OURSELVES have the upper hand to make the decision...why do we have to suffer on the perception of others? why do we have to give a damn on what others would think of what we look like? do we really need to hurt ourselves just because others dont find us BEAUTIFUL? if we are not happy with the way we look, yes by all means, make the changes, (i dont mean plastic surgery here) and do it just because, WE want to change it for our own benefit, not because we want OTHERS to accept us as BEAUTIFUL...
Girl: Hey
Boy: What?
Girl: I really like you. And I... I think I'm falling in love with you.
Boy: Ok...Girl: What do you mean "ok"?Boy: I don't like you like that...
Girl: Why not?
Boy: I can't tell you... maybe another time...
From then on, the girl kept asking the boy "Why not?" whenever she saw him, and he kept answering the same answer of "I'll tell you later." Finally the girl got fed up.
Girl: I'm tired of this! Tell me why you don't like me!
Boy: Do you really wanna know why?
Girl: Yes!
Boy: It's because you're uglier than freak! What's the point of going out with someone when they're not pretty?! (The nerve!! soo superficial!!)
Girl: But... I...
Boy: Just shut up and leave me alone!
The boy leaves and the girl is sitting there alone, crying her heart out. Then her cell phone rings.
Girl: Hello?
Mom: Sweetheart? I want you to go home, ok? I'll be home from work in a few hours.
Girl: Alright Mom.
Mom: I love you.
Girl: I love you too, Mom.
Mom: Bye Bye.
Girl: Bye
The girl heads home and once she got there, she went in the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror.
Girl: I'm not pretty enough...
She set to work, knowing fully well what she was going to do. 2 hours later, her Mom came home and heard the bathwater running. She went upstairs to find the hallway flooded so she knocked on the door.
Mom: Honey? Are you alright?
She opened the door and was shocked at the site. The bath was overflowing onto the floor, and the water was tinted red. She walked over to see what was inside and screamed. There, her little girl was lying with cuts all over her face and wrists. Her Mom backed away and was going to run to call the police when something caught her eye. On the mirror were these words written in blood: "Am I pretty enough now?"
No one deserves to be told that by ANYONE especially not from someone they love. A person's appearance doesn't count. What counts is their heart inside of them and their personality. No one likes to be told they're not good enough...
It's SAD but its also TRUE, that the scenario mentioned above is taking place in our daily life..i'm not talking only about boy-girl relationships, hell that's worse, to hear those freaking words from someone u love, its like a knife piercing through ur skin..rather im talking in general, about how the ppl living in the world today looks more on the outward beauty rather than beauty that's inside our hearts...true enough ppl always say, they only care about inward beauty and not the physical beauty, but how many of us really, truly mean it?
well, i've had my fair share of comments about my outlook, both positive and negative. But the worst, and the most hurtful came from someone i used to adore years ago...i know and could feel the pain the girl in the story above had felt...i had been told by this person many times, though its done subtly...things like, "i think you should start to exercise" (that's reasonable enough, no problems with that), "you're getting sick more often because you're not healthy, should start to exercise" (ok thats still not too bad), what about...."you see, how many times the back tyres of my bike had flattened, and why not the front one? its because of your weight,you really should start to exercise" (wah lau, that's abit harsh isnt it?) well maybe to some its just a passing comment, but to me, its no longer a passing comment when its been uttered many times...well its not something that i DON'T ALREADY KNOW and i wasnt like lazing around and do nothing, but then, with whatever's been said, its like being slapped in the face and really hurts especially when it comes from the person u love...but i thank Allah that i didnt go as far as doing what the girl did in her story....
well it's no wonder that ppl nowadays, especially girls would do WHATEVER and ANYTHING to stay slim or should i say thin....the society has been so-called 'programmed' to like only the beautiful and slim exterior...it doesnt really matter if you have a good heart or personality, or whether u have talents...
well i suppose, in this matter, we OURSELVES have the upper hand to make the decision...why do we have to suffer on the perception of others? why do we have to give a damn on what others would think of what we look like? do we really need to hurt ourselves just because others dont find us BEAUTIFUL? if we are not happy with the way we look, yes by all means, make the changes, (i dont mean plastic surgery here) and do it just because, WE want to change it for our own benefit, not because we want OTHERS to accept us as BEAUTIFUL...
My philosophies:
Beauty is only skin deep, what's important is what we really are inside...coz as we grow old, we might not be beautiful on the outside anymore, but if we have a good heart, we will always REMAIN BEAUTIFUL
If others find that we are not BEAUTIFUL enough for them, they can just @#$% OFF...
The Disney Jigsaw Photo Galleries
WARNING: The paragraphs and pics that follow might be too much to bear for some as it contain graphics which are too cute to be watched with the naked eye and may not be suitable for the weak heart ;)
ok so Mr IM had this brilliant idea in mind when he was passing this particular shop at IMM recently...he was 'concerned' that i was having trouble sleeping at night and thus had to do some things in order for me to feel sleepy, and one of them is ehemmm blogging the night away..so, he decided to get me to do 'something' meaningful instead (thanks Mr IM thats really very thoughtful of you)...and guess what, i've never thought about it actually, but it was a cool idea..he decided to get me to do a jigsaw puzzle.
So we went to this jigsaw shop he had in mind..we saw this 200 pieces Disney Jigsaw Photo Gallery series whereby we can actually take out the heart shaped pieces in the centre of the puzzle and put our pictures in it instead..so we bought 2 jigsaws, one for him and one for me..we decided to do for each other....so to see how the 2 jigsaws turned out, take a look at the end product below..eh..you all must bear in mind that this is the first time that we both are doing a 200-pieces jigsaw okayyyy and its not as simple as u all think u know...not like those that we used to do when we were kids...:P
I'm PROUD to present you with......(this is from me to him)
Time taken to complete puzzle only : 6 hours over 2 nights (not bad right??)
Let's now see how was his progress and the end product....
Mr IM busy concentrating hard on putting the pieces together...good luck ok?? surely can't beat my time taken one ;)
Hmm the in-process jigsaw after 30 mins....not bad...
The end product, finally........
Time taken to complete puzzle: 2 hours in one night!! Aiyyo...malu to the max seh...:P
So, this is a good remedy for ppl who have trouble sleeping at night..i highly recom
mend u ppl out there to try it out for yourself..it helps for me though..and because its so effective, Mr IM had bought me another jigsaw for me to try on; its a zodiac sign pic and guess how many pieces?? 1000 pieces, alammakk.....wonder how many months i will take to complete then....why dont u all try to guess how long I will take this time ;)
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
That's So Sweeeeetttt!!!
awwww....thats so sweet of you, my dear....
today was just another Monday Blues day that i've mentioned before (or so i thought)...when suddenly, there was a lady who came into our office with a bunch of red roses in her hand...hmmm CP receiving another round of flowers again, i thought..so excitedly, i went up to the lady, trying to be the first to receive it before anyone else, coz i've always teased CP on how i'm going to 'kapo' the next gift she receive from Mr Orange Julius (Mr OJ for short) hehehehe
but something wasnt right...the lady was calling my name this time and i thought, oh well so nice of Mr OJ to really bring flowers to 'bribe' me (oh no im a dead meat, i've caused trouble to him bla bla bla)...so i went up to the send
er, and i said "Yes, thats me..." she said, "These are for you hope you like them." and i was like, okayyyy hmm something is really not right...there is a card with my name and company address attached too. The handwriting seems familiar.....wait, the perfume on the card smells familiar too......don't tell me....ohhhh nooooo this cant be trueee!! nah, this can't be from 'him', i thought.....i opened the card carefully, recognizing the unmistakable scent of Hugo Energise...i read the contents and by then (i almost fell on the chair actually but tried to maintain my posture ;)) i already started to tear....i really couldnt believe what i was looking at...the flowers, beautifully arranged in a heart shaped pattern, with baby's breath and green leaves all around it....the best thing was, the red roses were the miniature type which i've always wanted to have....
i'ts the first time i've received such a sweet gift like that from someone....and because YOU, my dear Mr IM, had shown your sweetness by sending it at my office and allowing it to be seen by my colleagues, I, in return would like to show YOU my appreciation by telling it to the world...it might not be a big deal to some, but to me, it really
means alot...
Thank You, Mr IM, for making my day............
today was just another Monday Blues day that i've mentioned before (or so i thought)...when suddenly, there was a lady who came into our office with a bunch of red roses in her hand...hmmm CP receiving another round of flowers again, i thought..so excitedly, i went up to the lady, trying to be the first to receive it before anyone else, coz i've always teased CP on how i'm going to 'kapo' the next gift she receive from Mr Orange Julius (Mr OJ for short) hehehehe
but something wasnt right...the lady was calling my name this time and i thought, oh well so nice of Mr OJ to really bring flowers to 'bribe' me (oh no im a dead meat, i've caused trouble to him bla bla bla)...so i went up to the send
er, and i said "Yes, thats me..." she said, "These are for you hope you like them." and i was like, okayyyy hmm something is really not right...there is a card with my name and company address attached too. The handwriting seems familiar.....wait, the perfume on the card smells familiar too......don't tell me....ohhhh nooooo this cant be trueee!! nah, this can't be from 'him', i thought.....i opened the card carefully, recognizing the unmistakable scent of Hugo Energise...i read the contents and by then (i almost fell on the chair actually but tried to maintain my posture ;)) i already started to tear....i really couldnt believe what i was looking at...the flowers, beautifully arranged in a heart shaped pattern, with baby's breath and green leaves all around it....the best thing was, the red roses were the miniature type which i've always wanted to have....i'ts the first time i've received such a sweet gift like that from someone....and because YOU, my dear Mr IM, had shown your sweetness by sending it at my office and allowing it to be seen by my colleagues, I, in return would like to show YOU my appreciation by telling it to the world...it might not be a big deal to some, but to me, it really
means alot...Thank You, Mr IM, for making my day............
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Something to share.....
psssstttt.....i've got something to share...its something that i did...i dont know how to put it, i dont know if its wise to do it, i've been thinking about it, contemplating whether i should do it, but in the end....finally i did it....
I.....had.....a.......haircut! hahah did i just drop a bombshell?? well i know many of you are starting to say its not gona make a difference anyway coz they are not able to see hehe but then, it's something i gotta do at the moment since its giving me some problems...been keeping it for more than 2 years now and it's been some time that i've been holding back to cut it...but today, i thought, what the heck just cut it la....anyway, its just hair...can grow it back anytime...
so, the first ppl to see my new haircut were my family members...among the compliments received (or so i thougt) were, i looked better, i looked 5 years younger (thanks sis, thats really NICE of u to say that meaning, in my own words i look OLD and haggard all this while), i look like those days while i was still in secondary school, its nice..etc2..in fact my nephew looked at me and told his brother, "eh ni mak busu tau..." meaning, look, this is our auntie u know...hahah
So hello to my new look...other than it makes my head feels lighter, i suppose, its a way of me telling myself that, i'm letting go not only the over 2 years length of hair, but also, i'm letting go whatever that happened in my life during those period...the hairstylist was actually surprised when i said i wanted it to be cut short...she asked me if im ready before she took the whole bunch of hair and cut it off with one swoosh! thats really nice of u to ask, thanks for holding it in ur hand and dumping it to the floor with a smile on ur face...ouchhhh that really hurts...
well i hope, with this new haircut (not sure if it really suits me though), i will feel more energetic and refreshed, ready to open a new chapter in my life...wish me well, love y'all....
I.....had.....a.......haircut! hahah did i just drop a bombshell?? well i know many of you are starting to say its not gona make a difference anyway coz they are not able to see hehe but then, it's something i gotta do at the moment since its giving me some problems...been keeping it for more than 2 years now and it's been some time that i've been holding back to cut it...but today, i thought, what the heck just cut it la....anyway, its just hair...can grow it back anytime...
so, the first ppl to see my new haircut were my family members...among the compliments received (or so i thougt) were, i looked better, i looked 5 years younger (thanks sis, thats really NICE of u to say that meaning, in my own words i look OLD and haggard all this while), i look like those days while i was still in secondary school, its nice..etc2..in fact my nephew looked at me and told his brother, "eh ni mak busu tau..." meaning, look, this is our auntie u know...hahah
So hello to my new look...other than it makes my head feels lighter, i suppose, its a way of me telling myself that, i'm letting go not only the over 2 years length of hair, but also, i'm letting go whatever that happened in my life during those period...the hairstylist was actually surprised when i said i wanted it to be cut short...she asked me if im ready before she took the whole bunch of hair and cut it off with one swoosh! thats really nice of u to ask, thanks for holding it in ur hand and dumping it to the floor with a smile on ur face...ouchhhh that really hurts...
well i hope, with this new haircut (not sure if it really suits me though), i will feel more energetic and refreshed, ready to open a new chapter in my life...wish me well, love y'all....
Friday, July 27, 2007
Thanks Mr J....
Hi y'all.....ok ok i know i havent been updating my blog like a week now..im sorry..didnt have the time to do so..no excuse but then...nevermind...missed me? hahah y'all better do!!
ok so the purpose of this post is especially to thank Mr J...for all the goodies that he had given us all this while..I dont know how else to say Thank You to you Mr J...so i suppose this is the least i could do...thank you for the Mr Gingerbread Man, thank you for the Nice Cupcakes (though i didnt taste it, i'm sure it tastes delicious, at least thats what CP said ;)), thank you for the colourful hmm i forgot what they are called....they are kinda cakes i suppose (CP knows what i mean) and thank you for the Royals cakes and pies!!! they were delicious! well ok, im not gonna mention how many of them i actually ate, thats not important... (well actually kinda embarrassed to disclose how many of them i walloped :P) well...i actually wanted to take pics of them before i ate the cakes so i could post them in here but then....i actually forgot! haha..anyway Mr J, you will be happy to know that, not only the ppl in the office ate them, including me this time, my family got to eat them too....thanks Mr J for buying the cakes and what made me truly enjoyed and appreciate them was that, you especially bought the cakes and pies, which are halal so that i could eat them....that was a really nice gesture from you Mr J....
So, i would like to say a Big THANK YOU MR J....for being so kind and thoughtful towards us...i really appreciate that.
well as you know Mr J, im sitting just by the door and the next time you're sending a gift for CP, remember to make it 2 please...;) or you might just get a note back saying, "The person you had sent the gift to, is unavailable. Please try again later. However, I will be keeping the gift on her behalf...." haahhaha seriously, im kidding ok Mr J.....CP now eyeing me with her cold stare ready to charge at me...ouuuchhh......!
ok so the purpose of this post is especially to thank Mr J...for all the goodies that he had given us all this while..I dont know how else to say Thank You to you Mr J...so i suppose this is the least i could do...thank you for the Mr Gingerbread Man, thank you for the Nice Cupcakes (though i didnt taste it, i'm sure it tastes delicious, at least thats what CP said ;)), thank you for the colourful hmm i forgot what they are called....they are kinda cakes i suppose (CP knows what i mean) and thank you for the Royals cakes and pies!!! they were delicious! well ok, im not gonna mention how many of them i actually ate, thats not important... (well actually kinda embarrassed to disclose how many of them i walloped :P) well...i actually wanted to take pics of them before i ate the cakes so i could post them in here but then....i actually forgot! haha..anyway Mr J, you will be happy to know that, not only the ppl in the office ate them, including me this time, my family got to eat them too....thanks Mr J for buying the cakes and what made me truly enjoyed and appreciate them was that, you especially bought the cakes and pies, which are halal so that i could eat them....that was a really nice gesture from you Mr J....
So, i would like to say a Big THANK YOU MR J....for being so kind and thoughtful towards us...i really appreciate that.
well as you know Mr J, im sitting just by the door and the next time you're sending a gift for CP, remember to make it 2 please...;) or you might just get a note back saying, "The person you had sent the gift to, is unavailable. Please try again later. However, I will be keeping the gift on her behalf...." haahhaha seriously, im kidding ok Mr J.....CP now eyeing me with her cold stare ready to charge at me...ouuuchhh......!
Saturday, July 21, 2007
The Groggy But Happy Ending Day
today was a super groggy day for me...its the effects of the painkiller + sleeping pill i downed yesterday must be..well not a good combination though but i was hecking care coz the migraine i had was unbearable and lasted for almost 2 days on and off..
in the last sentence on my previous post, i mentioned that i hope i could wake in the morning...well i did wake up, only that it was 2 and half hours later than my usual wakeup time :P hahaha.. i woke up to the sound of 2 mobile phones screaming to my ears! one is my colleague Ann calling me on my office mobile, the other one is my dear calling me on my personal line...he just woke up too coz i didnt give him the wakeup call today..what a pair, we both were late!! i didnt know what time it was until i look at the clock and i literally jumped out of bed, its 9.25 am!! oh my gosh i never woke this late for work..i was like cursing myself for taking the sleeping pill few hours ago..i called my office, told them i just got up and i rushed to work, there goes my 20 bucks for the cab! arrrghh!!
so i spent the rest of the day multi-tasking between clearing as much work as i could, keeping my mind focused and functioning and also trying to prevent myself from dozing off...well the migraine is like stuck in my head still, so basically, i was a zombie...im grateful to my caring colleagues who were so concerned about me..they said i looked pale and unwell...my dad was warded in hospital since yesterday for some surgery, worried for him actually..wanted to visit him today but had to clear my work and stayed in late so i called to check on him, am relieved that he sounds ok...so i'll just go visit him tomorrow with Imran..btw, if y'all dont already know, he's my dear, my best friend, my companion..and Imran if ure reading this, youre getting more and more popular without me even doing any marketing campaign for you...ppl in the office are so eager to meet and know u....;)
so since i got off work late, we decided to have dinner nearby. so we had ayam/ikan/empal penyet..well the best part was our dessert..we ordered Ice Cendol and Ice Kacang..well both the desserts do not look or taste like it should be..so someone with a brillia
nt idea, decided to mix both dessets together to make it a REAL cendol..so we got 2 bowls, poured the 2 desserts in equal quantities into them and....wallllaaaaa ICE CENDOL ILS STYLE was created!! mind you it took 5 ppl to put it together and it tasted yummyyy...check out the pic i took ;)
well i had a nice time, its been awhile that we got to spend time together..and, i get to meet the man behind the pressies...Mr J. Thanks for all the goodies u've gotten for us :) appreciate your kindness and thoughtfulness...hmm how about some flowers for the next gift??? heeheh sorry just kidding... (CP eyeing me with a chopper in her hand already :P) opppsss....
in the last sentence on my previous post, i mentioned that i hope i could wake in the morning...well i did wake up, only that it was 2 and half hours later than my usual wakeup time :P hahaha.. i woke up to the sound of 2 mobile phones screaming to my ears! one is my colleague Ann calling me on my office mobile, the other one is my dear calling me on my personal line...he just woke up too coz i didnt give him the wakeup call today..what a pair, we both were late!! i didnt know what time it was until i look at the clock and i literally jumped out of bed, its 9.25 am!! oh my gosh i never woke this late for work..i was like cursing myself for taking the sleeping pill few hours ago..i called my office, told them i just got up and i rushed to work, there goes my 20 bucks for the cab! arrrghh!!
so i spent the rest of the day multi-tasking between clearing as much work as i could, keeping my mind focused and functioning and also trying to prevent myself from dozing off...well the migraine is like stuck in my head still, so basically, i was a zombie...im grateful to my caring colleagues who were so concerned about me..they said i looked pale and unwell...my dad was warded in hospital since yesterday for some surgery, worried for him actually..wanted to visit him today but had to clear my work and stayed in late so i called to check on him, am relieved that he sounds ok...so i'll just go visit him tomorrow with Imran..btw, if y'all dont already know, he's my dear, my best friend, my companion..and Imran if ure reading this, youre getting more and more popular without me even doing any marketing campaign for you...ppl in the office are so eager to meet and know u....;)
so since i got off work late, we decided to have dinner nearby. so we had ayam/ikan/empal penyet..well the best part was our dessert..we ordered Ice Cendol and Ice Kacang..well both the desserts do not look or taste like it should be..so someone with a brillia
nt idea, decided to mix both dessets together to make it a REAL cendol..so we got 2 bowls, poured the 2 desserts in equal quantities into them and....wallllaaaaa ICE CENDOL ILS STYLE was created!! mind you it took 5 ppl to put it together and it tasted yummyyy...check out the pic i took ;) well i had a nice time, its been awhile that we got to spend time together..and, i get to meet the man behind the pressies...Mr J. Thanks for all the goodies u've gotten for us :) appreciate your kindness and thoughtfulness...hmm how about some flowers for the next gift??? heeheh sorry just kidding...
Friday, July 20, 2007
Life For Rent
hmm what am i doing at exactly 2.46 AM??...thanks to the migrain that im having right now which seems like its never gonna go away.....couldnt sleep so i thought i would blog for awhile maybe it could put me to sleep...i actually took a painkiller this afternoon but seems like its not working anymore coz it only makes me more drowsy than anything else without even easing the pain..lousy medicine hmmmph!!!
took the bus ride home today after work as i was too weak and drowsy to walk to the mrt station..good thing was, i slept in the bus, came home, crash onto my bed again...gosh this painkiller is really a good one for making u sleep, better than making the migrain go away..while watching my bf in Prisonbreak, mom gave me a good head massage which really did some good coz i felt slightly better (thanks mom, love you), then did some work, talk to some friends, and then still, i couldnt sleep coz this migrain just wouldnt leave me!! oh well, just have to bear with it then...
hmm ok this has no relation with whatever i just mentioned above, the thought just came into my mind...have you ever being called a 'nagger'?? (dont pronounce it wrongly pls, or you'll get into trouble :P) pardon my English if this word doesnt exist in the dictionary, but just it describes someone who loves to nag...well i've been called that once before..first time in my life..and i was like, am i really one?? well what i remembered i was actually saying whats in my mind, its like downloading you know, so that you wont be bottling up ur feelings, and i thought it was a good idea to let it all out..but the other party actually felt that i was nagging! well its sad, really to be labelled as one coz that wasnt my intention, seriously...to me, if i do 'nag' it means that i do care a LOT.....well thats ok..im always at the receiving end, like i always said...anyway...whatever...so i've learnt to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself ever since...
right now, im listening to the song by Dido, Life For Rent, one of my fav songs, which I'm featuring it here in my blog..a very meaningful song which i love so much...very soothing, calming my nerves..share some of the lyrics with y'all...
'I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine'
well i somehow could relate myself to this song..the lyrics are self-explanatory of what my thoughts are...
i'm feeling slightly better now, after i did 'something', well dont worry, its nothing illegal or forbidden..and now i just popped a sleeping pill (prescribed by my doc, mind you)....looks like its taking effect now and it means that i have to stop now before i bang my head on my keyboard....good morning ppl..just pray that im able to wake tomorrow....
took the bus ride home today after work as i was too weak and drowsy to walk to the mrt station..good thing was, i slept in the bus, came home, crash onto my bed again...gosh this painkiller is really a good one for making u sleep, better than making the migrain go away..while watching my bf in Prisonbreak, mom gave me a good head massage which really did some good coz i felt slightly better (thanks mom, love you), then did some work, talk to some friends, and then still, i couldnt sleep coz this migrain just wouldnt leave me!! oh well, just have to bear with it then...
hmm ok this has no relation with whatever i just mentioned above, the thought just came into my mind...have you ever being called a 'nagger'?? (dont pronounce it wrongly pls, or you'll get into trouble :P) pardon my English if this word doesnt exist in the dictionary, but just it describes someone who loves to nag...well i've been called that once before..first time in my life..and i was like, am i really one?? well what i remembered i was actually saying whats in my mind, its like downloading you know, so that you wont be bottling up ur feelings, and i thought it was a good idea to let it all out..but the other party actually felt that i was nagging! well its sad, really to be labelled as one coz that wasnt my intention, seriously...to me, if i do 'nag' it means that i do care a LOT.....well thats ok..im always at the receiving end, like i always said...anyway...whatever...so i've learnt to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself ever since...
right now, im listening to the song by Dido, Life For Rent, one of my fav songs, which I'm featuring it here in my blog..a very meaningful song which i love so much...very soothing, calming my nerves..share some of the lyrics with y'all...
'I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine'
well i somehow could relate myself to this song..the lyrics are self-explanatory of what my thoughts are...
i'm feeling slightly better now, after i did 'something', well dont worry, its nothing illegal or forbidden..and now i just popped a sleeping pill (prescribed by my doc, mind you)....looks like its taking effect now and it means that i have to stop now before i bang my head on my keyboard....good morning ppl..just pray that im able to wake tomorrow....
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Have a NICE Day
yeah well, the title isnt supposed to sound like u're wishing someone to have a good day..rather it should sound like the song by Bon Jovi 'HAVE A NICE DAY'...if you know what i mean..
....I'm still PISSED in fact, I'm SUPER PISSED!!!
with whatever i blogged/bitch about yesterday, thought that i could forget about it when morning comes...but doesnt seem like it arrrghhhh!
for a start...it suddenly rained super heavily after i got dressed in one of my favourite WHITE, indian, flowing blouse and pants..well thats ok, i thought....i'm leaving soon anyway and was too lazy to change into something else.. so i was about to leave the house right, when someone called for some unexpected problems and i had to actually switch on my laptop and get the info there and call this person that person which actually took up the precious minutes of my time and i was late for work bla bla bla....ok so its still not too bad, right.....
and so i had to bring the umbrella today, walked a short distance to the shelter, and my pants were abit wet already, ok so i'm just being very careful, walking very slowly on the sheltered path towards the overhead bridge...the cars on the road were driving very fast though the road was like FLOODED already and created splashes on the side of the road...when suddenly one bugger driving a damn large lorry sped fast and drenched the shit out of me!!! Dammit!!! there goes my favourite translucent WHITE blouse....the only good thing was, i had company, there was one lady in front and behind me who shared the same fate....
got me into my WONDER mode again how these brainless drivers even got their licenses, wonder how ppl can be so inconsiderate and selfish....wonder how some ppl didnt even think about ur feelings and can leave you feeling sad,mad,frustrated.....and DRENCHED!!
to top it all off....i'm having a bad migrain at the moment....too bad, sorry y'all im flashing a sulky face, well i am feeling SUCKY at the moment..sorry for the inconvenience and thank you for your understanding..
....I'm still PISSED in fact, I'm SUPER PISSED!!!
with whatever i blogged/bitch about yesterday, thought that i could forget about it when morning comes...but doesnt seem like it arrrghhhh!
for a start...it suddenly rained super heavily after i got dressed in one of my favourite WHITE, indian, flowing blouse and pants..well thats ok, i thought....i'm leaving soon anyway and was too lazy to change into something else.. so i was about to leave the house right, when someone called for some unexpected problems and i had to actually switch on my laptop and get the info there and call this person that person which actually took up the precious minutes of my time and i was late for work bla bla bla....ok so its still not too bad, right.....
and so i had to bring the umbrella today, walked a short distance to the shelter, and my pants were abit wet already, ok so i'm just being very careful, walking very slowly on the sheltered path towards the overhead bridge...the cars on the road were driving very fast though the road was like FLOODED already and created splashes on the side of the road...when suddenly one bugger driving a damn large lorry sped fast and drenched the shit out of me!!! Dammit!!! there goes my favourite translucent WHITE blouse....the only good thing was, i had company, there was one lady in front and behind me who shared the same fate....
got me into my WONDER mode again how these brainless drivers even got their licenses, wonder how ppl can be so inconsiderate and selfish....wonder how some ppl didnt even think about ur feelings and can leave you feeling sad,mad,frustrated.....and DRENCHED!!
to top it all off....i'm having a bad migrain at the moment....too bad, sorry y'all im flashing a sulky face, well i am feeling SUCKY at the moment..sorry for the inconvenience and thank you for your understanding..
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
18/07/07
Don't mind the title, its just a date...can't really think of what's suitable. Nothing special, the way i see it, it's just exactly 2 months before my birthday...
I'm irritated, I'm agitated, I'm angry, hurt, sad, mad, I'm PISSED!!!
Wonder how a person couldn't appreciate the 'work' i've done...wonder what it takes to impress someone....wonder how a fine day took a turn to the other side....wonder why kindness is repaid by ignorance....wonder why ppl are being so hypocrite...wonder why ppl see the weaknesses BIGGER than the strengths....wonder why ppl only see the surface rather than what lies beneath....wonder why ppl accepts beauty and criticises ugliness....wonder why ppl thinks him/her self better than others....wonder why am i always at the receiving end??? Dammit!!!
there are no answers, no answers that i could think of....my mind is clogged up with the events of the day. Not that it was damn interesting, just making me WONDER...
maybe what i do is not enough, will never be enough...don't want to break it down what i've done, there is no need to...coz i just dont see the point...ppl will just be ppl and no one can change them other than their OWN SELF...
Just a word of advice though, before you even think of doing or saying something, think about the feelings of others and how it would be like if YOU are the one on the receiving end...
I rest my case.........
I'm irritated, I'm agitated, I'm angry, hurt, sad, mad, I'm PISSED!!!
Wonder how a person couldn't appreciate the 'work' i've done...wonder what it takes to impress someone....wonder how a fine day took a turn to the other side....wonder why kindness is repaid by ignorance....wonder why ppl are being so hypocrite...wonder why ppl see the weaknesses BIGGER than the strengths....wonder why ppl only see the surface rather than what lies beneath....wonder why ppl accepts beauty and criticises ugliness....wonder why ppl thinks him/her self better than others....wonder why am i always at the receiving end??? Dammit!!!
there are no answers, no answers that i could think of....my mind is clogged up with the events of the day. Not that it was damn interesting, just making me WONDER...
maybe what i do is not enough, will never be enough...don't want to break it down what i've done, there is no need to...coz i just dont see the point...ppl will just be ppl and no one can change them other than their OWN SELF...
Just a word of advice though, before you even think of doing or saying something, think about the feelings of others and how it would be like if YOU are the one on the receiving end...
I rest my case.........
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
To Blog or Not To Blog?
hmm...someone actually said that the posts in my blogs are long and so 'chim' haha so i told the person ok ok i will try to write more about what happened in my daily life rather than blogging only about some topics which are not too much of a concern to this person...so Sab-Tron, this is for you ok, so better read it regularly!
talking about blogging, it struck me actually what's the main purpose for blogging? well according to the definition, a blog is actually a virtual diary...while some makes it a point to blog everyday (that's my intention actually) and tell from A to Z what went on during the day, others blog only when they have something to share..some prefer to go anonymous and unknown (so that they can say whatever they want and bitch about whoever they dislike), there are others too that reveal their identity and everything about themselves...well each to his own mind, everyone is free to do what he/she thinks is right as long as they have the brains and know better than to touch on some delicate and sensitive topics..
well, looks like this is yet another topic-based post..sorry Sab can't help it :P
so, the way i see it, there are advantages and disadvantages in blogging...its good in a sense that you can actually 'download' your thoughts somewhere. Imagine you just had a bad encounter with someone and you couldnt really tell it to anyone, you can bitch about the person in here hahah!! Just remember to use abbreviations or code words to name the person ;) Well the disadvantage is that sometimes ppl tend to get too carried away with their thoughts that they might spill too much about themselves that their life becomes not so private anymore...in some cases, their posts became so personal that it might spark some controversies. well whatever their reasons for blogging are, as long they are happy with it, who the hell cares what others would think right?? coz ultimately its your own blog, you decide what you wana do with it and whatever you post in it, you're responsible for it and just be prepared to accept whatever comments that ppl might post into it.
ok for y'all out there who are contemplating whether to blog or not to blog, my advice is, just blog sama dia!...as long as u don't become 'goblog' (an unofficial word in malay which means stupid) thats ok lah...;)
talking about blogging, it struck me actually what's the main purpose for blogging? well according to the definition, a blog is actually a virtual diary...while some makes it a point to blog everyday (that's my intention actually) and tell from A to Z what went on during the day, others blog only when they have something to share..some prefer to go anonymous and unknown (so that they can say whatever they want and bitch about whoever they dislike), there are others too that reveal their identity and everything about themselves...well each to his own mind, everyone is free to do what he/she thinks is right as long as they have the brains and know better than to touch on some delicate and sensitive topics..
well, looks like this is yet another topic-based post..sorry Sab can't help it :P
so, the way i see it, there are advantages and disadvantages in blogging...its good in a sense that you can actually 'download' your thoughts somewhere. Imagine you just had a bad encounter with someone and you couldnt really tell it to anyone, you can bitch about the person in here hahah!! Just remember to use abbreviations or code words to name the person ;) Well the disadvantage is that sometimes ppl tend to get too carried away with their thoughts that they might spill too much about themselves that their life becomes not so private anymore...in some cases, their posts became so personal that it might spark some controversies. well whatever their reasons for blogging are, as long they are happy with it, who the hell cares what others would think right?? coz ultimately its your own blog, you decide what you wana do with it and whatever you post in it, you're responsible for it and just be prepared to accept whatever comments that ppl might post into it.
ok for y'all out there who are contemplating whether to blog or not to blog, my advice is, just blog sama dia!...as long as u don't become 'goblog' (an unofficial word in malay which means stupid) thats ok lah...;)
Sunday, July 15, 2007
The Behaviour Style
Before i begin, allow me to say that whatever written in the paragraphs that follow are all based on my research in the internet from various sources for the sole purpose of sharing of information and is not in any way intended to promote or divulge any copyright materials...ok sounding so serious...suddenly thought about this topic so i decided to blog about it.
Behaviour and personality styles are related but they are somewhat different. Personality is everything about YOU. Your emotions, temperament, education, religion, up bring, genetic traits and so on. Behaviour is the outward expression of who you are. Unlike personality style, it can change depending on your environment such as home, social, school, or work. Behavioural style is not who you are but what you do with who you are. It can also be viewed as our personal 'comfort zone' or the style we adopt naturally when not under stress. Since behavioural style is unique to each individual, by identifying the right behavioural style combination, we will be able to know a person's strengths and weaknesses and thus, helps us to adapt ourselves to others.
Behaviour profiling is often used by employers to find out if a candidate is suitable for a certain position in the company and whether they are more likely to stay on the job. While other employers use this tool on their existing employees to find out how they can further maximise the potential of their staff. Also, by knowing and understanding each other's behaviour style, we are more likely to be able to have a better working environment as we will know how to adapt to their style and handle a person better.
According to some gurus in the human performance improvement industry, there are 4 distinctive behavioural types. Driver/Leader Style, Socializer/Promoter Style, Supporter/Amiable Style and Administrator/Thinker Style. Actually each of has all the 4 styles in us its just that there will be 1 or 2 prominent styles that denote our main behaviour. Ok i will not venture into the definition of each style....you can do some research on your own, its interesting, trust me. So recently i had taken a test to identify my behaviour profile. And can anyone guess what is mine??? Well mine is Supporter & Administrator Style..with supporter being the more prominent behaviour...lets see whats the definition of these styles are and you tell me if its right about me...(time to find out how well ppl know me :P)
Supporter
Supporter appears to be casual but conforming. Their preference is to maintain relationships and avoid confrontation. Their pace is slow and easy. They prefer an atmosphere that encourages close relationships, and achieve acceptance through conformity and loyalty.
Supporters want to be appreciated, seek attention, and try to avoid confrontation. They want you in turn to be pleasant because they are irritated by insensitivity and impatience. They measure their personal worth by their degree of compatibility with others, and the depth of their relationships.
Under pressure, an Amiable will submit or acquiesce.
To win over and work with Amiables, we need therefore to support their feelings, and
show how our ideas will support their personal circumstances.
Administrator
Administrators appear somewhat formal and conservative. Their main priority is the job in hand, and the process to achieve it. Their pace is measured and systematic. They prefer an atmosphere that encourages careful preparation and achieve acceptance through being correct, logical and thorough.
Administrators want recognition as being correct, seek accuracy, and dislike embarrassment. They want you in turn to be precise in your dealings with them, because they are irritated by unpredictability and surprises. They measure their personal worth by their degree of precision, accuracy and activity.
Under pressure, an Administrator will withdraw into their own world, and avoid contact with the causes of stress.
To win over and work with an Administrator, we need therefore to support their thinking, and show how our ideas will support their personal credibility.
So how?? Any comments? Drop me some ok? And i strongly encourage y'all to go find whats your style. And once you know the differences in the 4 profiles, you can easily find out whats the styles of others so u can easily TEKAN them, HANTAM them hahah kidding guys...what i mean is, adapt to them ok? Ok till next blog, i will try not to blog too long essays at one time or you all will be sleeping on the pc....
Behaviour and personality styles are related but they are somewhat different. Personality is everything about YOU. Your emotions, temperament, education, religion, up bring, genetic traits and so on. Behaviour is the outward expression of who you are. Unlike personality style, it can change depending on your environment such as home, social, school, or work. Behavioural style is not who you are but what you do with who you are. It can also be viewed as our personal 'comfort zone' or the style we adopt naturally when not under stress. Since behavioural style is unique to each individual, by identifying the right behavioural style combination, we will be able to know a person's strengths and weaknesses and thus, helps us to adapt ourselves to others.
Behaviour profiling is often used by employers to find out if a candidate is suitable for a certain position in the company and whether they are more likely to stay on the job. While other employers use this tool on their existing employees to find out how they can further maximise the potential of their staff. Also, by knowing and understanding each other's behaviour style, we are more likely to be able to have a better working environment as we will know how to adapt to their style and handle a person better.
According to some gurus in the human performance improvement industry, there are 4 distinctive behavioural types. Driver/Leader Style, Socializer/Promoter Style, Supporter/Amiable Style and Administrator/Thinker Style. Actually each of has all the 4 styles in us its just that there will be 1 or 2 prominent styles that denote our main behaviour. Ok i will not venture into the definition of each style....you can do some research on your own, its interesting, trust me. So recently i had taken a test to identify my behaviour profile. And can anyone guess what is mine??? Well mine is Supporter & Administrator Style..with supporter being the more prominent behaviour...lets see whats the definition of these styles are and you tell me if its right about me...(time to find out how well ppl know me :P)
Supporter
Supporter appears to be casual but conforming. Their preference is to maintain relationships and avoid confrontation. Their pace is slow and easy. They prefer an atmosphere that encourages close relationships, and achieve acceptance through conformity and loyalty.
Supporters want to be appreciated, seek attention, and try to avoid confrontation. They want you in turn to be pleasant because they are irritated by insensitivity and impatience. They measure their personal worth by their degree of compatibility with others, and the depth of their relationships.
Under pressure, an Amiable will submit or acquiesce.
To win over and work with Amiables, we need therefore to support their feelings, and
show how our ideas will support their personal circumstances.
Administrator
Administrators appear somewhat formal and conservative. Their main priority is the job in hand, and the process to achieve it. Their pace is measured and systematic. They prefer an atmosphere that encourages careful preparation and achieve acceptance through being correct, logical and thorough.
Administrators want recognition as being correct, seek accuracy, and dislike embarrassment. They want you in turn to be precise in your dealings with them, because they are irritated by unpredictability and surprises. They measure their personal worth by their degree of precision, accuracy and activity.
Under pressure, an Administrator will withdraw into their own world, and avoid contact with the causes of stress.
To win over and work with an Administrator, we need therefore to support their thinking, and show how our ideas will support their personal credibility.
So how?? Any comments? Drop me some ok? And i strongly encourage y'all to go find whats your style. And once you know the differences in the 4 profiles, you can easily find out whats the styles of others so u can easily TEKAN them, HANTAM them hahah kidding guys...what i mean is, adapt to them ok? Ok till next blog, i will try not to blog too long essays at one time or you all will be sleeping on the pc....
Thursday, July 12, 2007
My World
Before everything else, i would like to say thanks again to those of you who had directly, indirectly, discreetly or openly viewed the humble blog of this amateur and contributed your comments on my postings. Well my 'plea' for someone to comment on my blog had actually paid off, as an anonymous person had actually left a comment saying that he/she had been reading my blog. That's really nice of u to 'virtualise' yourself, just that you're anonymous..so it makes me wonder who u really are..but thanks, really..
Thanks to my 'wonderful' colleagues (you know who u are) who had actually verbally commented that the previous layout with the pic in black and white and situated in the centre looked more like a blog dedicated to a dead person (duh!), I've made some changes to the blog, more prominently seen are the slides of my pics which i titled it as Ednique's World. These pics show my self in places i've been, reflections of my thoughts, people who are part of my daily life and who mean alot to me namely some of my family members (i didnt include my parents and the rest of my family members' pics yet, but i will)my colleagues and my loved one. For those of you who find your pics in there, CONGRATULATIONS!! you've become part of my world. I just would like to take this opportunity to THANK YOU for being those ppl whom i can rely on, who had bring joy (and sorrow :P) to my life, who had made me realise the true meaning of TRUST, CARE & LOVE. I just want you to know that i really appreciate and treasure the FRIENDSHIP, RELATIONSHIP & FAMILY BOND(SHIP??) that we have all this while and YOU mean alot to me..For those of you who didn't find your pic there, it doesn't necessarily mean that u're not part of my world..just that maybe i didn't have a pic taken with you ;)
Well so enough said, I'm beginning to feel that my blog sounds more and more like an academy award thank you speech haha! Till next time...
Thanks to my 'wonderful' colleagues (you know who u are) who had actually verbally commented that the previous layout with the pic in black and white and situated in the centre looked more like a blog dedicated to a dead person (duh!), I've made some changes to the blog, more prominently seen are the slides of my pics which i titled it as Ednique's World. These pics show my self in places i've been, reflections of my thoughts, people who are part of my daily life and who mean alot to me namely some of my family members (i didnt include my parents and the rest of my family members' pics yet, but i will)my colleagues and my loved one. For those of you who find your pics in there, CONGRATULATIONS!! you've become part of my world. I just would like to take this opportunity to THANK YOU for being those ppl whom i can rely on, who had bring joy (and sorrow :P) to my life, who had made me realise the true meaning of TRUST, CARE & LOVE. I just want you to know that i really appreciate and treasure the FRIENDSHIP, RELATIONSHIP & FAMILY BOND(SHIP??) that we have all this while and YOU mean alot to me..For those of you who didn't find your pic there, it doesn't necessarily mean that u're not part of my world..just that maybe i didn't have a pic taken with you ;)
Well so enough said, I'm beginning to feel that my blog sounds more and more like an academy award thank you speech haha! Till next time...
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Thank U!
Finally after a few posts, there is someone who left a comment on my blog! I was soooo happy when i learnt that my kind colleague had left a message for me...thank you dear thats so sweet of you...at last i'm convinced that at least a 'few' people actually took their time to really read my blog and gave attention to whatever i was blabbering about.
well anyways, thank you once again for all those who had visited my blog and left comments in it. Do leave me more comments not only regarding my postings but you're also welcomed to give your feedbacks on my blog as a whole.
And do remember, only HONEST, SWEET, ENCOURAGING & FLATTERING comments are ALLOWED (just kidding guys :P)
Now im more confident and motivated to continue blogging...just bear with it guys :)
well anyways, thank you once again for all those who had visited my blog and left comments in it. Do leave me more comments not only regarding my postings but you're also welcomed to give your feedbacks on my blog as a whole.
And do remember, only HONEST, SWEET, ENCOURAGING & FLATTERING comments are ALLOWED (just kidding guys :P)
Now im more confident and motivated to continue blogging...just bear with it guys :)
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Arrrrrggghhh!
Today nothing interesting happened, just that i felt abit tired. Maybe because of what happened the night before. Well I had to settle some matters in the middle of the night which i supposed got into my subconcious mind that it made me even dream about the problem oh my godddd!
Ok i had a call at abt 1 am right, something urgent cropped up and i was just about to fall into a deep sleep when my handphone rang..i was actually too sleepy to think properly and make a decision but it was too urgent not to just sleep it off..so in my sleepy mode i said some stuff to the other person, made another phone call which the other person didnt answer, well what do u expect? its freaking 1 am! so after that i went back to sleep....the funny thing is, i even dreamt about it! ahhaha it's so funny how my mind works..i must have been even thinking about the problem while i was asleep and how i wish things would turn out the way it is in the dream..but it didnt! ahahha
well anyway, it was settled in the morning.. and so my day picked up from there..seems like this week is yet another draggy week. funny how i can somehow feel that weekdays sometimes pass so quickly for one week and so damn draggy the following week....but only 2 days remain constant regardless which week it is..SATURDAYS and SUNDAYS...well i'm not the only one who find that these 2 days pass by so fast...;) its always like that, whenever you're not working and not doing anything, the time passes very quickly..but thats ok, its gonna be Wednesday tomorrow and another 2 more days its weekends again! (how do u find my motivation factor? ;))
ok so for all of you out there (i wonder if anyone is reading my blog at all? if u are pls make me feel that that im actually talking to someone by leaving me some comments at least??) have a good week ahead!
Ok i had a call at abt 1 am right, something urgent cropped up and i was just about to fall into a deep sleep when my handphone rang..i was actually too sleepy to think properly and make a decision but it was too urgent not to just sleep it off..so in my sleepy mode i said some stuff to the other person, made another phone call which the other person didnt answer, well what do u expect? its freaking 1 am! so after that i went back to sleep....the funny thing is, i even dreamt about it! ahhaha it's so funny how my mind works..i must have been even thinking about the problem while i was asleep and how i wish things would turn out the way it is in the dream..but it didnt! ahahha
well anyway, it was settled in the morning.. and so my day picked up from there..seems like this week is yet another draggy week. funny how i can somehow feel that weekdays sometimes pass so quickly for one week and so damn draggy the following week....but only 2 days remain constant regardless which week it is..SATURDAYS and SUNDAYS...well i'm not the only one who find that these 2 days pass by so fast...;) its always like that, whenever you're not working and not doing anything, the time passes very quickly..but thats ok, its gonna be Wednesday tomorrow and another 2 more days its weekends again! (how do u find my motivation factor? ;))
ok so for all of you out there (i wonder if anyone is reading my blog at all? if u are pls make me feel that that im actually talking to someone by leaving me some comments at least??) have a good week ahead!
Monday, July 9, 2007
The Review
Mondays have always been labelled as BLUE all the time because ppl always get the syndrome "Monday Blues". And coincidentally, Mondays have always been a day that passes very slowly and when all the meetings will take place hmmmph!
So its not suprising too that today was one of those draggy days that everyone's waiting for the 'official' time to get home. But the funny thing is, whenever the 'official' working time is over, we never always get to go home on time..well not always because we are bogged down with work, well at least for me, its because i got tired of waiting for the day to end that i felt lazy to step out of the office! hah!
So the day went fine actually today we had a celebration for our colleague whose birthday is on the 18th this month...so we cut the cake, had the cake and talked abit during the meeting and then....it was time for the boss to release the results of our Review Form! All of us were very anxious to see the results of the review because its actually an evaluation of our self by our colleagues. The ratings include, Results, Communication, Integrity etc....and apart from that, it includes the part that everyone was so anxious to read, the comments made by our colleagues on the categories mentioned earlier.
So, well im not going to say what my ratings were, other than its OK and can be further improved. But its all numbers anyway and im not really interested in all those figures. Rather, like everyone else, i was more concerned about the comments. Well, i did have some positive comments which made me smile and also negative comments which, of course made me abit disheartened though i somehow expected it because they are true. But i told myself, this is actually a blessing in disguise because these comments actually will help me to identify my weaknesses and others' perception of me. In this way, it acts as a target (another one :P) for me to work on and improve on myself so that i could be a better employee and be an asset to the company. Cehh steady lah Edah!! Well, negative comments aren't always bad actually (need to constantly remind myself that and pls do remind me will ya if i ever forget), as long as its constructive feedback and not being criticism to demotivate a person.
So for all of you out there who happens to read this, whenever we give someone a feedback, always remember to give CONSTRUCTIVE FEEDBACK, comments about issues that you would like the subject to know, in order that he/she could review and improve on (be it in writing or verbal), and not in any way sounding like a criticism or bitching session. And always, do it TACTFULLY..because no one likes negative comments, especially if its being conveyed with harsh emotions. Well of course, its easier said than done...and me too, i do admit that im a culprit. So, by writing it in here, i hope that i could inadvertently remind myself on that..
ok so, im done for today..To my wonderful colleagues, thank you for those feedbacks that you've given be it good or bad, im taking it on my stride. I'm ok, i'm fine, just need to keep myself focused on improvements to be made and i pray that God keep me in His guidance always and give me the strength to keep on going and pursue what i plan to achieve..Insyallah..Amin
So its not suprising too that today was one of those draggy days that everyone's waiting for the 'official' time to get home. But the funny thing is, whenever the 'official' working time is over, we never always get to go home on time..well not always because we are bogged down with work, well at least for me, its because i got tired of waiting for the day to end that i felt lazy to step out of the office! hah!
So the day went fine actually today we had a celebration for our colleague whose birthday is on the 18th this month...so we cut the cake, had the cake and talked abit during the meeting and then....it was time for the boss to release the results of our Review Form! All of us were very anxious to see the results of the review because its actually an evaluation of our self by our colleagues. The ratings include, Results, Communication, Integrity etc....and apart from that, it includes the part that everyone was so anxious to read, the comments made by our colleagues on the categories mentioned earlier.
So, well im not going to say what my ratings were, other than its OK and can be further improved. But its all numbers anyway and im not really interested in all those figures. Rather, like everyone else, i was more concerned about the comments. Well, i did have some positive comments which made me smile and also negative comments which, of course made me abit disheartened though i somehow expected it because they are true. But i told myself, this is actually a blessing in disguise because these comments actually will help me to identify my weaknesses and others' perception of me. In this way, it acts as a target (another one :P) for me to work on and improve on myself so that i could be a better employee and be an asset to the company. Cehh steady lah Edah!! Well, negative comments aren't always bad actually (need to constantly remind myself that and pls do remind me will ya if i ever forget), as long as its constructive feedback and not being criticism to demotivate a person.
So for all of you out there who happens to read this, whenever we give someone a feedback, always remember to give CONSTRUCTIVE FEEDBACK, comments about issues that you would like the subject to know, in order that he/she could review and improve on (be it in writing or verbal), and not in any way sounding like a criticism or bitching session. And always, do it TACTFULLY..because no one likes negative comments, especially if its being conveyed with harsh emotions. Well of course, its easier said than done...and me too, i do admit that im a culprit. So, by writing it in here, i hope that i could inadvertently remind myself on that..
ok so, im done for today..To my wonderful colleagues, thank you for those feedbacks that you've given be it good or bad, im taking it on my stride. I'm ok, i'm fine, just need to keep myself focused on improvements to be made and i pray that God keep me in His guidance always and give me the strength to keep on going and pursue what i plan to achieve..Insyallah..Amin
Sunday, July 8, 2007
07/07/07
Yesterday was 07.07.07
A day that many Singaporeans (and I'm sure many in other countries too), got married. It was the highest record of 777 marriages that took place in Singapore, according to the news. Its definitely a day to be remembered, well that includes me too :)
Hmm, in this 20th century, I'm sure many had been planning for their special days to take place on the days corresponding to the months and years and it has started since 2000. So, as the year goes by, the date will be further such as, 01.01.01, 05.05.05 and so on. So i had this small talk with one of my cousin right, and she was telling me, maybe hers will be 10.10.10 hmm so thats only 3 years from now..time passes very fast and im sure in no time, it will be another year passing.
As for me, 7 years has passed since the year 2000. So, according to my own target, I would want to settle down by 30 yrs. So that leaves me with 3 more years. Hmm wondering if this target could be reached? When ppl ask me, "Edah, when are you getting married?" So my response will be "Insyallah, in December..." and they will go like, Really? Serious? and they get all hyped up and then I will say, "But dunno which year lah...." hahah and they will have this dissapointed look on them ;)
Ok ok so i have this date in mind ok? Its 20.09.2009. Nice one? Well actually at first, my target will be 09.09.09, just like many others had planned i suppose. But then, according to the calender, its a Wednesday and so someone gave a cool suggestion; how about the week of my birthday? 18.09.09 is a Friday and so the weekend is 19 and 20. Well it sounds perfect to me. And when i put it down in writing, its 20.09.2009. It has to be written this way then only the pattern could be seen. Hmm i never thought about it actually, because the rave is all about the day corresponding to the month and year. So, i've uncovered something new; well at least i suppose im the last person on earth to realise that.
Ok so, 20.09.2009 it will be Insyallah...but, like i said, its a target...so with whom, and whether this target could be reached, only God knows...
So its exactly 2 years 2 months 12 days as of today...Gotta start my planning now..anyone wana help me with a Gantt Chart..? ;)
A day that many Singaporeans (and I'm sure many in other countries too), got married. It was the highest record of 777 marriages that took place in Singapore, according to the news. Its definitely a day to be remembered, well that includes me too :)
Hmm, in this 20th century, I'm sure many had been planning for their special days to take place on the days corresponding to the months and years and it has started since 2000. So, as the year goes by, the date will be further such as, 01.01.01, 05.05.05 and so on. So i had this small talk with one of my cousin right, and she was telling me, maybe hers will be 10.10.10 hmm so thats only 3 years from now..time passes very fast and im sure in no time, it will be another year passing.
As for me, 7 years has passed since the year 2000. So, according to my own target, I would want to settle down by 30 yrs. So that leaves me with 3 more years. Hmm wondering if this target could be reached? When ppl ask me, "Edah, when are you getting married?" So my response will be "Insyallah, in December..." and they will go like, Really? Serious? and they get all hyped up and then I will say, "But dunno which year lah...." hahah and they will have this dissapointed look on them ;)
Ok ok so i have this date in mind ok? Its 20.09.2009. Nice one? Well actually at first, my target will be 09.09.09, just like many others had planned i suppose. But then, according to the calender, its a Wednesday and so someone gave a cool suggestion; how about the week of my birthday? 18.09.09 is a Friday and so the weekend is 19 and 20. Well it sounds perfect to me. And when i put it down in writing, its 20.09.2009. It has to be written this way then only the pattern could be seen. Hmm i never thought about it actually, because the rave is all about the day corresponding to the month and year. So, i've uncovered something new; well at least i suppose im the last person on earth to realise that.
Ok so, 20.09.2009 it will be Insyallah...but, like i said, its a target...so with whom, and whether this target could be reached, only God knows...
So its exactly 2 years 2 months 12 days as of today...Gotta start my planning now..anyone wana help me with a Gantt Chart..? ;)
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Under my UMBRELLA
It's raining...starting the day off with a gloomy but cooling weather..My head hurts, maybe because of not really having a good sleep last night, gotta change my pillow now ;)
In this weather, listening to the Umbrella song by Rihanna, these verses stuck in my head...
"You had my heart
And we'll never be world apart
They be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby, cause in the dark
You can see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because…
When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, Ima stick it out till the end
Now it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella"
I suppose I'm an umbrella by nature, especially with close friends who would want to seek shelter would come to me..though i sometimes wonder, am i that wonderful an advisor? Well I've taken personality tests etc and found that well its true that ppl like to come to me for advise or just to vent out their frustrations..However, with self-analysis, i've decided that, I'm a true listener, someone whom u can be assured to provide u with a shoulder to cry on, anytime. I just can't bear to just walk away and pretend that I'm not affected by their unhappiness. I suppose thats my distinctive nature which I'm thankful that God gave me.....
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