Life For Rent

hmm what am i doing at exactly 2.46 AM??...thanks to the migrain that im having right now which seems like its never gonna go away.....couldnt sleep so i thought i would blog for awhile maybe it could put me to sleep...i actually took a painkiller this afternoon but seems like its not working anymore coz it only makes me more drowsy than anything else without even easing the pain..lousy medicine hmmmph!!!

took the bus ride home today after work as i was too weak and drowsy to walk to the mrt station..good thing was, i slept in the bus, came home, crash onto my bed again...gosh this painkiller is really a good one for making u sleep, better than making the migrain go away..while watching my bf in Prisonbreak, mom gave me a good head massage which really did some good coz i felt slightly better (thanks mom, love you), then did some work, talk to some friends, and then still, i couldnt sleep coz this migrain just wouldnt leave me!! oh well, just have to bear with it then...

hmm ok this has no relation with whatever i just mentioned above, the thought just came into my mind...have you ever being called a 'nagger'?? (dont pronounce it wrongly pls, or you'll get into trouble :P) pardon my English if this word doesnt exist in the dictionary, but just it describes someone who loves to nag...well i've been called that once before..first time in my life..and i was like, am i really one?? well what i remembered i was actually saying whats in my mind, its like downloading you know, so that you wont be bottling up ur feelings, and i thought it was a good idea to let it all out..but the other party actually felt that i was nagging! well its sad, really to be labelled as one coz that wasnt my intention, seriously...to me, if i do 'nag' it means that i do care a LOT.....well thats ok..im always at the receiving end, like i always said...anyway...whatever...so i've learnt to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself ever since...

right now, im listening to the song by Dido, Life For Rent, one of my fav songs, which I'm featuring it here in my blog..a very meaningful song which i love so much...very soothing, calming my nerves..share some of the lyrics with y'all...

'I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine'

well i somehow could relate myself to this song..the lyrics are self-explanatory of what my thoughts are...

i'm feeling slightly better now, after i did 'something', well dont worry, its nothing illegal or forbidden..and now i just popped a sleeping pill (prescribed by my doc, mind you)....looks like its taking effect now and it means that i have to stop now before i bang my head on my keyboard....good morning ppl..just pray that im able to wake tomorrow....